oooo. you have absolutely no idea how much i hate dislike my parents now. gosh, i tell you, they tick me off so bad!!

RARRHHHH!!!!

bloody arses. now, i seriously do need my own laptop or computer, whichever, i can't be bothered with what right now. but. i seriously can't stand them. their insensitive remarks, their judgemental gazes, ______(fill in with whatever appropriate term) ....so on and so forth. the list goes way down, if i continue, this post wouldn't need to end at all.

okay, back to the bottem line. they said that i can screw up my o's for all they care. they said that i can be a bum for all they care. but, whatever. please, don't phycho me. i'm not four anymore damnit. helloooo, they don't even wanna support me when i said that i wanted to go overseas to further my studies. they said that even though they had the money, they wouldn't support me. i've learnt my lesson from then on. i would never want to share my hopes and dreams to them anymore, cause they would just ridicule me in turn. so what's the point? they asked why don't i talk to them? can't they just see it for themselves? and, they didn't ask in such a polite manner at all. this is like the pg-13 version. so, yeah. i swear my father would hit me if my mother weren't there. they were seriously blowing their own horn bout "those days" whatever. shit man. when i heard how they spoke to me. i tell you. i laughed and rolled my eyes. what they said were the most impossible thing to believe. trust me. oh god, how i laughed. when i got down, from their wasted one hour lecturing me, i had the most wicked thoughts ever. but, ya know what. they are so ignorant. they have no idea how much i really know. which is so much; so much. maybe that's why i'm burdened. so much stuff that i'm not even supposed to know, i know. shit load i tell you. god damnit.

fuck them man. they are the worst parents ever. can you imagine a child being afraid just to ask their mother the simplest question, or have to avoid going home or sneaking out so that they needn't see their parents? and this is every single day. can you imagine? or have you actually heard of such a person? well, i haven't. maybe i'm just the first? maybe. i don't know what's out there planned for me, but all i know is that i can't wait to leave this place and go out to live out there by myself. even as they say, not to be boastful or anything, "you have the looks and the brains, why waste it all?" the first thought that rushed through my mind was that what if, what if i took a knife right now, and cut my face, what would that make me then. next, was the most ridiculous thought ever, those stupid things that wileen made up in that so called slam book. well, i have the boobs and the butt too? ain't that just a bloody superficial. i know i've been that superficial, but, i would never ever demoralize my daughter by saying that. so what if you have the looks, so what if you have that body? who the hell bloody cares? i know those men, those dirrty old men and boys, those ahpeks, she-langs, buayas; do care bout these things, but why should i care? when i get out there, i don't want people to see me for my looks or for my body, i want them to see my talent and my capabilities.

geez, won't that be one little toughie.

anyways, enough of this.

i shall start off with saturday. after my first session of additional mathematics tuition after a long period of absence, i went with windah to catch just my luck. well, i do have to say, it didn't wuite meet up to standard, and the plot was silly and the ending real dumb. though lindsay is super hot. then, we took a cab home and started cam-whoring in the cab. the drivers behind us must really had a difficult time driving with all that flash going on behind of the cab, very distracting i know. and i think that the cab driver must think that we are absolutely bonkers, and i'm sure he got some free show, cause i was wearing a real short skirt. so was windah. but... i can't be bothered much now. photos, if they are ready, will be posted later.

okay, today. after having lunch at mos burger, caleen, meiwen and windah went to the library to study, while muhd and i went around to popular and evergreen to find some assesments and the calculator, which i found out was discontinued. damn man. i loved that calculator, the best and most idiot-proof calculator ever. stupid casio people. now the oly place, according to muhd, that sells it would be at muzafar, of however you spell it. i don't even know where the hell that is. will anyone be a doll and get it for me? HAHA. i think i will go hunting for like caleen's calculator, which is kinda like mine. okay. anyways, continueing from these mundane rants, we then headed down to mc-cafe for fluffies, which are quite yummy. especially if you put the marshmellos inside and allow it to melt. ((:

then, we headed for the library, which i was ever so blind. okay, shutup now. and tried to study. it was dun, and i felt so smart for doing some amath questions that some people, who i dare say are supposed to be better at amath than me can't do! ((: *ahems*

and, meiwen was so proud that she completed her math homework. well, i do have to say that i'm kinda proud of her as well. she did what she said she would, and she really has tonnes of potential, and she really can concentrate on doing her work, which i can't very much say so for myself. we definitely had tonnes of laughters and fun, with all those mindless conversations and memories.

loves it!

we shall do this again tomorrow! ((:

anyway, for now. i have loads to do. so photos later. ((:

oh yeah. just spoke to caleen.she just told me something super hilarious. GOSH! i can't stop laughing now. but, she does not allow me to post it up here, cause it would be super embarrasing. HAHA. okay. i know this is kinda redundant, but, whatever. ((:

xoxo,

manda.